4 AM

Well its 4 AM and I cannot sleep, which is wierd. If you knew me you know that not sleeping is very odd for me. Whenever I wake up early in the mornings like this all I can do is reflect on the past. Past friendships, mistakes and so on. There was someone this morning I thought I should write and apologize too for being an idiot to, but the more I thought about it the more I'm not sure it really affected them so I decided to leave well enough alone. The big things I miss in these early hours are friends. Life has always seemed to be a constent cycle of me making really close friends and then losing all of them. It becomes somewhat depressing, but I wonder sometimes if God uses that to get us back on track or maybe it's just part of most people's life venture. There are some friends I really miss and would like to see again, but life just never seems to work like that. That's part of why I really miss college. They were all there just a dorm or two away and you were always free to see them. Vacation to do such a thing just meant skipping a class. I kind of wonder if heaven is going to be kind of like giong back to college. All of my friends are there and there is ample time to visit although on a side note I still think we will have work in heaven. Not hard labor just simple jobs, because God gave Adam work in the garden and said it was good for him. Well for those of you who are my friends and read this I miss you very much. I'm just waiting for life to take it's next turn which I think that I am ready for, but I am afraid it may never happen. I have been longing for sometime to get back into the church, but sometimes I feel as though they don't really want me back. I have no reason to feel that way I just do. I was contacted this week by one of the students I used to work with at the church and it brought a lot of emotions back. I had forgotten what it felt like to help someone and the joy that brought. It reminded me that I can make an impact in someones life. I think too often we view life as a list of accomplishments we have done. I have always seen it though as a journey of lives that we have touched or affected or been affected by. There are some friends who have severly changed my life and some who have simply helped me smile but each has been of great importance in my lifes journey. Right now I feel somewhat like I'm hitchhiking down lifes road waiting for the right person to pick me up but I've forgotten to continue walking towards my goal in the mean time. I hiope that when all is said and done and I reach my destination that I can look back at highway of exits and entrance ramps and realize that the path I took was well chosen and impacted those I passed by.

Christmas

Well my wife and I already exchanged gifts. She did a wonderful job picking out gifts that I love especially Zelda for the ds and Mario galaxies for the wii. I am excited to go home for Christmas. I do feel bad though because this will be the first time Krista has ever been away for Christmas. This is the first time I will have gone home since February I think. Yeah so it's always good to get back home and see everyone. I love Christmas but hate winter it's a pardox and no that doesn't mean two doctors (say the word paradox aloud). Well I need to go but last random thought why does it always feel icky when you put on used socks. In fact I think I would rather put on used underwear. Don't know why later.

Dumb Ideas

1. The Customer is Always Right- Whoever thought of this was definitely a boss and never did customer interaction. Sometimes people are just simply dumb and think they know what they are talking about but really have no clue. Sometimes you wish you could explain to them how dumb they are but unfortunately even though they think every channel is in HD because they have an hd tv they have to be right because they're the customer.

2. Parents just want their kids happy- What idiot thought this one up and why do so many idiots buy into it. My parents didn't want me to be happy they wanted me to grow up to do right knowing in the end that would lead to my happiness even if I didn't like it now. Warning for all who believe in this theory even though it will make them happy don't let your kids use your credit card.

Chick Filet

So we went to chick filet tonight because I burned dinner. I'm usually not a horrible cook but tonight we threw it out. The problem was I was looking for a lid to cook the vegetables and forgot to keep stiring the meet. Oh well. We got to go to chick filet instead which I enjoy a lot. I love this restraraunt because the people are so nice there. It is christian owned and I believe the managers are required to be Christians also and you can really see the difference it makes. Also, it's very clean always a plus when you got to go potty. So that's about it oh and the new ep by jon foreman is out and for sale even on itunes. I bought it but haven't listened to it much yet but it sounded good. Very slow mostly acoustic.

Switchfoot

Jon Foreman (lead singer of switchfoot) is coming out with a solo ep on Nov. 27. Three more will be released with each season also. Sounds cool should be good.

What's happened in a month

So yeah it's been forever but that's how it goes sometimes or really most of the time. So most recently my work truck was broken into and some stuff stolen. Never fun to deal with. They could have at least asked for the keys so the window didn't have to get fixed. Oh well. One of my favorite things is a dream I had. Justin Timberlake was singing to a small group of people (no I don't listen to his music). Well he did something horrible in my dream. He attempted to cover a switchfoot song. I remember when I heard it come on my first reaction in the dream was to yell out "Don't mess it up." Unfortunately he did. No one clapped afterwards and Justin was sad and I told him that it's just to hard to sing like John Foreman and he shouldn't try to cover his songs anymore. Then end and yes that is a true story. We decorated our christmas tree and my wife christmasfied the apartment and it looks very nice. That's all for now.

Poop

I stepped in poop the other day while working at someones house. I'm still not sure if it was inside the house or outside. I think the chances were better inside.